I’ve been struggling trying to figure up how to follow-up my last post. I couldn’t come up with any ideas that seemed appropriate, and then I heard this song:
Life breaks and falls apart But we know these are Places where grace is Soon to be so amazing It may be unfulfilled It may be unrestored But when anything that’s shattered Is laid before the Lord Just watch and see It will not be unredeemed“Unredeemed” by Selah
Well what a perfect song, and what a perfect way to move forward with my blog: REDEMPTION
I’ve heard redemption defined many ways. To save from sinfulness. To set free or rescue. To recover ownership by paying a specified sum. To make up for. But for me, redemption is a number. The number 18.
God revealed himself to me during my grief, and I chose to see his love and his faithfulness even in the darkest times. But the hard fact still remains: “Life breaks and falls apart”. I was still shattered. I was still broken. God was with me in the ruin, but it was still a messy, broken-hearted place strangling in the overgrown vines of sadness and loss. The revelation of his presence and his goodness brought comfort to this place, but I still had to walk through it.
The 18th of May splintered my world. Putting it back together again took time. Step-by-step, piece-by-piece, God worked painstakingly to rebuild. A new me began to emerge from the ruins, softer, kinder, gentler, and more sure of her faith. But even as that place of ruin began to drift into memory, the number 18 could shake my new foundation. It lurked on calendar pages, street signs, cash registers and clocks. When it showed its face, I was afraid. The 18th was a bad day. 18 was a bad number, sinister and evil. Nothing good could happen if the number 18 was around. Or at least that’s what I chose, quite unwittingly, to believe.
That is until the 18th of August, 2007, when my son, Owen, was born perfectly healthy and screaming at the top of his lungs. It’s the most beautiful sound I’ve ever heard, and with that sound, the number 18, the number of ruin, was totally and completely changed. Its past transgressions were entirely erased. It’s not only a good number; It’s a great number! It has been REDEEMED!
“But when anything that’s shattered Is laid before the Lord Just watch and see It will not be unredeemed”
Wow, God is sure amazing and learning to have faith in him even in the drakest hours shows how his light will shine! Amazing how something as simple as a number can become a huge part of our lives!
By: Desiree on November 8, 2010
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